i just had to move on

2006-10-08T20:36:00.000+08:00

k, this is the address. (:

CLICK HERE

HAVE FUN RELINKING AND SO ON.

2006-10-08T19:09:00.000+08:00

shit i have to move again because the stupid beta.blogger thing is screwed. now no matter what codes i put in my template the blogger NAVI BAR THING on top of the page will always be there, and frankly, that stinks. also when i make changes to my template and click preview it doesnt open in a new window so its VERY inconvenient. sheesh. so im moving. will post the address here later. when i think of it that is. RARRRRRRRR
i HATE this so much.

2006-10-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

YO MAN! (: im back from my longest not blogging period (i think). haha. ive really not been using the comp for a week or so! wow. haha. cause ive been going to my cousin's house after school. i like it there. and throughout the week at his house ive been watching desperate housewives. (: i love it okay? how silly of me not to watch it before. it really rocks, and i love bree. haha. im gonna buy the season 2 dvds AS SOON AS I RUN INTO SOME CASH. (:

okay, prelim results. well i got 23 points, yeah. some of you may be going, HUH SO MUCH? haha, and i understand. there was a time i though 23 points was HUH SO MUCH too. but now, i guess im really fine with it. i hope the school will moderate man! haha. but even still i think im gonna stay home for the first three months next year. wanna make a date with me feel free to call since i'll be SO free. haha. (: oh well.

what about after that you ask? well, im SERIOUSLY thinking of going poly. like, its so much more appropriate for me, and yes i like the environment more. i'll let God decide for me. :D

okay today my father's car tyre punctured. it was my first time experiencing that okay? haha. he banged into a curb and the WHOLE car jerked very vigourously and then the car started making weird noises. so we realised it was a tyre puncture. haha. so daddy changed it. and he was sweating so so much it was dripping everywhere. haha. funny.
anyway i was thinking. changing a tyre is such a TIREsome job. hahha. get the pun? (:
okay, im done here.

2006-10-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

all this talk about prelim results have gotten me real stressed out. but as i was sitting here worrying and wondering what action i should take to make myself feel a little more reassured, like guessing my l1r5 again and stuff, i realised. there's nothing i can do now. except PRAY and hope for the best. what good is worrying like mad now? seriously. im mad. what i've been doing is equivilent to a man trapped in a burning house staring at an open door, his only form of escape, and telling himself that he's gonna die. like, seriously. who am i kidding? God is the answer. He is there for me no matter what. all i have to do is pray to Him. and yet im here acting like an idiot and worrying for nothing. all along i've been crying out HELP ME HELP ME when God is just there, His arms wide open, waiting for me to throw myself into His arms. but the stupid shitface me just refuses to see that the only way out for me now is to turn to Him. my clear route of escape is there, right in my face and i cant see it. HOW STUPID CAN I GET?

but anyway now im feeling fine. all's well! (:

2006-10-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

(: open the eyes of my heart Lord

HOLY HOLY HOLY !

my skins are not getting much publicity and im sad. ): haha. i just came back bout 1 hour ago from dinner at tonkichi. (: the pork was nice la, but abit too much. i was like stuffing the big piece into my protesting mouth. haha. but overall, delicious. thanks ah, uncle. haha. :D i've been having dinner with him since yesterday. tomorrow also, im going to his house. its not at yew tee. ang mo kio. hahaaa. (: i hope i can find my way there man. gosh.

okayyy. does anyone know i have this ginormic thing for ____ ? hahahahaa. al knows. and its so crazy everytime i look at ____ i feel so... lets say, SMITTEN. hahahah. (: i dont believe me. but it started quite long ago, when i was quite young. hahahha. oh yuck.

anyway, back to things people understand. denise told me at tuition she got 8 for prelims. !!!!! and letty 12! SHEESH. stress stress. why are people all around me so smart? and im scared im the only one who failed amath in my tuition, again. SHEESH! gahhhh

okay, nighty.

2006-09-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

eh yo man! haha. gosh. my leg is so itchy now, i cant stop scratching. argh i hate itchiness. anyway. today i had a rather great day haha. went for lunch at ritz carlton to celebrate dagu's birthday. it was a buffet but the food wasnt very impressive to me. ahah. i hace high expectations. to be considered delicious a buffet should have plenty of choices, like western, jap, chinese, italian, etc all in one. and i cant get bored with choosing food after like, 2 rounds. cause that's just so NOT FUN. haha. today they had jap, sashimi and sushi. ahhhhh. but there was hardly any western, mainly chinese food. like those we eat everyday. no oysters which is a MUST HAVE for me, so honestly, i didnt enjoy it much, and felt sick after finishing my food. haha

yes yes, then i had tuition. i think i figured out relative velocity with the help of my teacher. haha. (: YAY. okay. then my uncle and auntie picked us up for dinner. they brought us to rendevous. that curry place? i tell you, the mutton there is delicious. (: hehheh. i had fun at dinner lah. hahah. (:
we're going to my aunt's house tomorrow. yayness. haha. :D

okay, im still itching. YUCK. okay gonna sleep now. bye

2006-09-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

hey! (: im here, after submitting a new skin to blogskins. you wanna see? haha. ahh, just go check out all my skins. i'd love to get more publicity. haha. (: here's the link. measuringsummer i'd get it on my links list soon. haha. but im lazy now. go check it out! haha.

okay this week's been hectic, quite without mummy and all. we're still trying to get used to it. ): i've stopped bursting into tears, if thats a step up. wahaha. so ive been travelling to YEW TEE everyday after school because dagu is there and i cant bear to stay at home in an empty house all by myself. at least when im there there're people. and my niece and baby nephew is there! they are adorable, trust me. they really are the cutest kids ive met. haha.

and do you know how long my train/bus rides total to? haha. 1 and a half hour. :O okay. if you have no clue where yew tee is ( like me one year ago ), lets just say its further than jurong. from school. yeah. get the picture? i read most of SHOPAHOLIC TIES THE KNOT on those train rides. haha. (:

i shall not say anything about the STUDYING i've been doing. it'll only make me worried. hhaha hahah shut up.
-.-

after dinner at my cousin's house one of my cousins will drive home and i'll enter the room and not come out. then ill sleep. hahah. i havent been on the sofa for ages. seriously. i think i should go have a lie down there before bed, just for old times sake. hahaha. i think im mad. but these few days have been completely surreal to me. its like, everything's changed. block periods, heading to yew tee after school and not home, no mummy, no sissy, no daddy. its like, so unworldy. hahha. yeah, i dont know lah, it just feels so different and my old life seems so far away.

i've said what i'd come to say so for now its toodles. :D night.

2006-09-26T21:16:00.000+08:00

im here. we sent my sissy and parents off at the airport last night. ): im still rather emotional about the whole thing now, and i dont want to sound sissy ( i mean like, in the gay sense ) but i cant stop tears from springing to my eyes everytime i think of the fact that i wont be seeing her for such a long time. so if i dont talk in school or anything please dont bother me okay?

i dont think ill get over it. i miss them all so much, i miss my mummy and daddy, i miss her. ))): this morning when i had to wake up myself, and when i had to do everything myself, i realised how much i need mummy. not only physically, but i just cant do without her presence. i realised i need her so much and thinking of the fact that she wont be around for so long just reduces me to tears. im a mess.

she'll be back next friday, but so what. sissy will still be gone. its terrible having to part with family, i tell you, terrible. i couldnt stop crying last night, until i fell asleep. then this morning was no better. just wanna let you all know that no matter where you go, i will be here, missing you, loving you.

i guess im still not over the sadness of the parting yet. im just not ready for this. i cant believe im not gonna see her till december. and i cant wait to, as a matter of fact. before they even landed in london, i was wishing for them to come home, to return to my side. but it was impossible. every little thing seems to remind me of them and i just cant control my emotions.

if you see me with tears in my eyes in school, you'll know why, but im trying to be strong. i only allow a few drops to ooze out of my eyes, i dont even let the tears fall down my cheek. i dont want questions or pitying glances. i cant take all of that. i know it may seem like im making a mountain out of a molehill, but its really difficult. if you never parted with someone you love, you wouldnt know how it feels.

so anyway. i really love my family and sissy, I WANT YOU TO COME HOME! like, for real. but that'll only be when im 20. to think, we're all growing up so quickly. by the time you finish your university, i'll be like a grown woman. its just happening so fast.

i love you and i miss you i hope that touched you. (:

i want my mummy

2006-09-24T19:22:00.000+08:00

If You Ever Leave Me
When i fall you're my place to mend
I lose my touch, you're my hands
The one i hold on toIf you run out of reasons to try
I'll love enough for both you and i
I'll be the one you can run to

I'd rather go through any pain love puts us through
Than to spend one day without you by my side

If you ever leave me
Will u take me with u?
If you're ever lonely
I wanna be lonely too
My home's beside you
No matter where you may go
My love's inside you
Even more than you know.

In a world of anger and lies
I find peace in your eyes
A flame in the darkness
Ooh ¡ and through all space and time
Till every star refuses to shine
You know where my heart is

I'd rather go through any pain love puts us through
Than to spend one day without you by my side

If you ever leave me
Will u take me with u?
If you're ever lonely
I wanna be lonely too
My home's beside you
No matter where you may go
My love's inside you
Even more than you know.

And i can't remember life without you
The way it used to be
Feels like a million years away
But hold me till the angels sing
Tell me every little thing
Promise me forever from this day

If you ever leave me
Will u take me with u?
If you're ever lonely
I wanna be lonely too
My home's beside you
No matter where you may go
My love's inside you
Even more than you know

now, i only post songs here when im utterly addicted to that song, and this song is truly beautiful. its on repeat now on my itunes. and im so loving it. ((: please go download it and listen to it. the tune is just so sweet. (:

so. my sister is leaving tomorrow night it seems. ): haha. well, its sad, but i cant do anything can i? and she'll be back in december. well, farewell dear sissy you will be missed.

haha
(:

2006-09-23T12:32:00.000+08:00

hey. haha. the after prelims days have been great so far! (: okay, just to keep you all updated on the recent happenings in my life since i havent been blogging much ;p

friday after bio paper one we went to watch john tucker must die! haha. what a funny and entertaining chick flick! it was really entertaining lah, go catch it, its a good watch especially for girls who recently stuffed 48337364361567146 GB of knowledge (?) in their brains for prelims. haha. relax abit what. some brainless stuff like that is just the right thing to destress now eh!
haha, so i was in a very good mood because the show was so nice. haha.

then al called me while we were shopping at the dhoby exchange. (: and she told me that i won skin of the day! oh wow. like YAY! haha. on 20th september that is. (: screenshot for you guys!

cool? my first time! haha its a flash skin! (: but the flash wasnt made by me, so i didnt really do much for the skin lah, but still, so exciting right!

haha. so. i havent been studying. haha.
yesterday, went out with clsg! (: met xuan at her house first, surfed the net for abit and then we went to the beach for a walk. my stomach was hurting so badly! oh my. later i found out it was crampOs, cause my uterus lining broke down. haha. and oh my i was feeling so FAT. like, i was so disgusted at my flabbing stomach and thighs and calves and hips and everything. im a big lump of fats okay!
haha. so i was like complaining to xuan. "ITS TINA THE TALKING TUMMY!"
amusing. so we cabbed to school to pick audrey up then decided to cab straight to jurong. haha. and i still hadnt realised that i was bloodier than usual yet. until 2-3 minutes in the cab and i felt it. haha. EWW GROSS. shall not mention the details here.

so reached jurong, and RUSHED to the toilet. which was mercifulyl rather empty so no queue. did my changing, and cleaning up. haha. then we bought sharks fin for $2.50. haha. fake one lah. but it tasted good! anyway. i was still having crampOs, and i suddenly remembered that i had pink pill! haha, it was from my last one, and i just left it in my wallet. (((: i was so glad i took it immediately and my crampOs disappeared. ((: praise the Lord.

so we went up to the rink and that stupid xuan and aud got cold feet. haha. "i dont want to go" "im scared" "my legs are shivering". hahahahaha. cartoon lah you two. so managed to get them in in the end. hey! it was fun right? silly toots. xuan skated like a snail. haha. ((: funny lah you xuan! funny. and that stupid aud pulled me down! hahha. and that was the only time i fell. (: (proud grin)
xuan also fell once i think, only that audrey fell like 4 times? hahHA! very entertaining. (:

so after skating, we went to take neoprints! haaaaha. so long never take neos alr! had lots of fun, er, designing. long lost memories of the old days of designing and having so much fun in that pinkish place came flowing back. haha. (: it was fun.

then i came back home and watched ICE PRINCESS. how significant. (: i really really wanna learn how to figure skate. do you know how graceful and beautiful that sport is? its like so COOL! :D and while we were skating we saw this guy and he was so so cute and he could figure skate so well! haha. talk about eye candy. (: i want to take up figure skating so badly. but its so expensive. ): haha. and the skates are seriously expensive too. but i really want it. so badly. ): but i dont think im cut out for it. haha.

okay, im gonna watch ice princess again later i think. im addicted to that show, seriously and badly. i dont think i'll ever get bored of it. (: haha. okay. so now im here and im gonna try to download john tucker on you tube. haha. i just wanna watch it again. (: okay, byebye.

blessed weekend ahead people. (: and friends, enjoy the MASSIVE block periods starting on monday. can you imagine 2 periods +++ with adela? not that i dont like her, i just dont like her LESSONS cause i dont understand what shes saying half the time so... yeahh.

2006-09-19T15:01:00.000+08:00

hello all! (: today we had emath paper 1. i think i did rather badly cause all my answers are wrong. ): but im leaving it to God.

no matter what happens im going Your way!

God is just so great! so amazing and so powerful! just trust Him and all things are possible. you dont have to worry about what others say to you, who cares about all the people on earth? so what if everyone here on earth hates you when God loves you? IT DOESNT MATTER! why are people always worrying that people will talk behind their backs? it doesnt matter, not one bit. as long as you have the love of God our father, that is greater than the love of all the people in the world!

and who cares what your l1r5 is? who cares whether you can make it to a jc? who cares? as long as God tells you you are not worthless, and you're not stupid just because you cant get a decent l1r5, does anything else matter? i dont get why people are all worrying about little things like that. who cares if you dont have nice clothes/shoes? who cares if you dont have cool accesories? who cares about all that stuff?

God cares, but its only because we care, and God wants us to be happy. And as long as we dont have these things we feel terribly upset. thats why God cares. He wants us to be happy. but if we were to surrender it all to Him, let Him decide your life, let Him be the boss of you, let Him take control of everything, all these things will be added into our lives, even without us realising. we'll be living the perfect lives and we wouldnt even know it!

Because remember, we dont care. all we should care about is focusing our attention on God. turn to God in all things. He is there to guide our lives. He is there to make us happy, and to help us grow in Him. He will never forsake us, and since this is so, isnt it silly to worry about little things like this? if God promises that He will never forsake you, He never will. Because God never goes back on His word. He is an amazing God. if God never forsakes you, do you think He will let you go without clothes/accesories? He will provide these things into our lives. all we have to do is TRUST IN HIM, and all these things will be given to us, in abundance.

God never gives us more problems than we can handle. Do you think when you're upset God is just sitting up in heaven watching and thinking, "oh, never mind.i dont care about her, let her be sad who cares? " NO! God is forever working. He is working in order to ensure our happiness. He is so amazing, surrender your problems to Him, and believe that it is taken care of. and its like, POOF! your problem is turned into thin air.

when you sit down, God will not rest. (: when you pray to God about a problem, feel it being taken away from your hands. feel the amazing feeling of giving up your problem to someone who will definitely solve it for you. You go to the doctor with faith, you trust that the doctor will cure your sickness, God is your doctor. He is there to help you and will not give up until He is sure you are well again. Doctors are a special breed, only doctors can heal illnesses effectively. Same thing for God. only God can turn your problem into thin air with just one word. (: God is special. God is great!

NOTHING IS EVER IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD. if we all truly believe it, then why are we still worrying? a merry heart does good like medicine. whats a little problem to God? to you it may seem like a MOUNTAIN of problems piling on you, but to God, its so so so so small. its so small He can just ignore it, just like we ignore the little things on earth. for example, you're sitting on the pathway and you see a group of ants 1 metre away from you. you think, as long as they dont bother me, i'll not care about them. it is also easy for you to stand up and step on them, killing them all. the insignificance of these group of ants is just like how God sees our problems. they are unworthy of His attention, He can ignore it, or He can make things 1000 times worse by just one word, but He wont do that. He will look at your problem as though it is of utmost importance, and take care of it for you. and once He does, its 100% confirmed that our problems will be solved before we know it. SO WHY ARE WE WORRYING?

God is almighty and strong. there is nothing He cannot do.
(: im one lucky girl to be a child of such an amazing FATHER

2006-09-18T17:10:00.000+08:00

what an ADVENTUROUS day it was. is it right to use that word to describe a day? haha. anyway who cares? yes, we had alot of terrible things happen. what a day what a day. okay so after lit we went to parkway for err, breakfast? we went to treats first, then found out that there was no food cause the stalls werent open yet. so we went to burger king and found out that we didnt feel like eating burgerking. haha. we left again and then settled for macs. then anne left to go home. and tian char and me searched aimlessly for a place where we can study.

we went to mph, but each table only got 2 armchairs. so we were fighting over them and then we decided not to sit there anymore. we walked out, laughing hysterically. :D made our way to sakae to find it closed, so we sat at coffee bean. then we got up and walked to pasta mania. closed. we went to starbucks, raining. FINALLY we went to kfc. hahah. WHAT RETARDEDNESS right!

so in a day we visited :
1) treats
2) burger king
3) macdonalds
4) mph
5) sakae
6) coffee bean
7) pastamania
8) starbucks
9) kfc

hahahhaha. whether or not we sat down in the restaurant doesnt matter. and thats not all.
the most exciting part of our day came in 4/7 classroom.
we put our pencil boxes in the _____
then we transported _____ to gerry's bag
then we took ______ back from gerry's bag
then we put _____ it in our own bags
then we put _____ in chars biscuit box
then we put _____ in my bag

and i almost had a heart attack. hey, if this is read by the wrong eyes, i didnt say we did anything wrong okay?? haha. ((:
bio prac was okay so so. only thing is that i got confused while doing the food tests.
"shit which one is X which one is Y"
"shit which one is inside which one is outside?"
"shit i used all my outside Y on starch test shit got no more for benedicts"
"shit should i redo?"
"shit no time"
"shit. aiyah never mind just guess"

haha. and my results are the same as many people's. including phoebs! ((: so im feeling rather assured. ((((: good good. and btw, the school thinks they're very rich. they bought ORCHIDS for us. do you know how much orchids COST? haha. they're insane, seriously.
i can remember what lam peng kwan said to us :
"no need study orchid no one will buy orchid lah so expensive" well haha, very funny. tkgs likes to be abnormal. haha. ((:

lit was okay for 1a, i did the music one. but i spent SO MUCH TIME on the essay i only had 20 minutes to do part b. and i was happily making little notes on my paper and i glanced around and everyone was on part b already and i was like BIG SHIT! haha.
but i managed to complete it in the end, thank God. although my answer to part b might have been a little too rubbishfied. hahah. (: ah well. who cares.

okay byebye <333

2006-09-17T13:40:00.000+08:00

helloooh. (: my legs are aching for some reason. hehheh. anyway. im bored lahh. i just cannot wait for it to end. i think ill go nuts after Os. :DDDDDDDDDDDD like, really really nuts. hahahahahaHA.
im feeling weird.

okay theres nothing to blog about so i guess ill just go. (:

2006-09-16T17:45:00.000+08:00

why hello people. haha. (: okay here's the big reason for my move. my father found out the address of my blog cause i stupidly went to put it as my homepage. ( NO ). im not sure if he will be bothered to check it out or not but to be on the safe side i decided to move. haha. too many secrets you see. haha. ((:
so its goodbye silverhoops, and hello symphonycalls.

(: change is good, i guess. but i was just starting to get attached to silverhoops. like i love it so so so so much. ): oh boohoohoo.

anyway. no tuition today im supposed to be studying for lit/other subjects since amath is over. haha. yes well. but im not but who's surprised?
yesterday we went back for band, they annouced the new comm. then we stayed a while to listen then we went home. the chocolate chip muffin in day and night is just delicious. maybe its cause i was so hungry. gah :D

or i almost forgot. for lunch we went to studio cafe and they were playing the exorcism of emily rose. i only err, peeped at the last few chapters of the movie. so i only got to errr, peep at the flashbacks. friends say that the beginning would have been scarier. cause it'll be the actual possesing right? but anyway. surprisingly when i think about it after watching the show im not that scared anymore. cause the show is also filled with God, right? i mean, it just goes to show (as xuan says) how powerful our God is. He only has to command they (the demons) tell Him their 6 names and they HAVE to do it. ahh, the POWER of God. ((:

awww. anyway i think if i were to watch the show again i wont be that scared. i was scared for a while. even now when i think of the moments in the show i feel the shudders, but i'll be fine after a while. its not like other shows where i'll be scared for 1 week plus. cause this show is somehow...different. ((: i like it quite alot actually. although i dont really understand certain parts. never mind anyway.

hahah. (: im glad. i just hope i do reasonably well for prelims, is it possible? ah, its all up to God to decide for me cause i have surrendered this exam to Him. ((: BLISS

2006-09-16T16:00:00.000+08:00

testing. ((: