Sunday, October 01, 2006

all this talk about prelim results have gotten me real stressed out. but as i was sitting here worrying and wondering what action i should take to make myself feel a little more reassured, like guessing my l1r5 again and stuff, i realised. there's nothing i can do now. except PRAY and hope for the best. what good is worrying like mad now? seriously. im mad. what i've been doing is equivilent to a man trapped in a burning house staring at an open door, his only form of escape, and telling himself that he's gonna die. like, seriously. who am i kidding? God is the answer. He is there for me no matter what. all i have to do is pray to Him. and yet im here acting like an idiot and worrying for nothing. all along i've been crying out HELP ME HELP ME when God is just there, His arms wide open, waiting for me to throw myself into His arms. but the stupid shitface me just refuses to see that the only way out for me now is to turn to Him. my clear route of escape is there, right in my face and i cant see it. HOW STUPID CAN I GET?

but anyway now im feeling fine. all's well! (:

smitten to the very last bone in my body.